Wow. Where did 2010 go?
This has been one heck of a year for me and my brood. I will forever remember 2010 as the year that brought a whole new level dimension of awareness to me.
I woke up this year.
I have a new awareness that not everything is as it seems on the outside.
And with that came a new awareness that true change begins when one dares to take a closer look on the inside.
A new awareness that awareness isn’t always enough. Awareness that by daring to ask the next question, one needs to be prepared for what those answers may bring.
Awareness that a willingness to follow the path untraveled can bring more questions than answers.
Awareness that not having all the answers means you’re still lucky to be actively participating in this journey called life.
In the grand scheme of things, I think I evolved more this year than in my entire 37 years combined.
One thing I am grateful for? Having been without my sense of smell and taste for the past 7 1/2 months.
I am grateful because it allowed me to tap into my other senses as I experiment in my kitchen, most notably my senses of sight, sound and touch. So much of what I (we) strive for in our cooking is constrained by the tyranny of smell and taste, but I must admit that I have never paid much attention to the “feel” of smashing the perfect garlic clove versus a sub-standard one. Or the feel of rolling a lemon under my hand to release every essence of its juice into my recipe. Not being able to smell the onion or taste the spices has made me pay much more attention to the broader experience of presentation, texture, and the art of “hearing” a fresh carrot crack in my hands (this is the type of verbiage I heard all throughout IFBC in September, a.k.a. “food porn,” and I am a similar shade of crimson now, as I was then. My husband on the otherhand… 😀 ).
On New Years Eve past, I would have spent hours preparing food and/or myself for a party or a night on the town. Instead, I spent 6 hours cleaning/clearing my pantry of every expensive (yet previously grateful to have), gluten-free substitute. Wanna know why? Because it seems that almost every single one of them contains corn, eggs or milk …all brand new allergies for us. Kind of spooky huh?
So as my family and I begin 2011, we are feeling a bit like Alice through the looking glass, in that we now gaze upon a world we are only beginning to understand. And, just like Alice falling through the rabbit hole, we really have no idea where we will land, but we know that as long as we keep our “glutadoodle goldfish” heads, we will be just fine (anyone know where I can score a silicone goldfish ice cube tray? Can one become allergic to water? Nevermind, don’t answer that).
I’m really excited to see what 2011 will throw at me…
What where your learning moments of 2010?
What are you looking forward to in 2011?